Changed perspective =)
Saturday, April 5, 2008
♥ 9:42 AM
I wanted to delete my previous post away after today's sermon.
I felt so ashamed, guilty and I began to worry how other's will look at me.
But God reminded me what He spoke during camp.
As long as I have repented, decided to change and to think differently,
God will be pleased.
I only need to have a clear conscious and right standing before God,
I don't need to mind what others will say.
'The vulgarities and toilet story' - ask me if u wanna know =)
So i decide not to delete it,
it's true that i thought and felt this way
but I realise my mistakes.
God spoke and I'm willing to change.
I went to service with a tired body, tired mind, tired spirit and tired heart.
I didn't expect much to happen during the service.
All i thought was that it will be just like any other service.
During praise and worship,
i wasn't concentrating much.
I was too tired and i wasn't expecting much.
However when Pastor Jasmine start sharing about the sermon topic today,
my heart leap. It was about Love.
As she start sharing more about it, i sense fear in my heart.
I was scared, I'm trying to hide.
Perhaps because of pride, i didn't want to touch this topic at all.
As she continue to preach, i was totally amazed.
It's like God sitting in front of me answering all my questions, doubts
which I listed down in my previous post.
All along i have been loving people with my own kind of 'love',
my own standard.
But Jesus is here to set a new standard of love.
An unconditional love,
a love that is not a fair exchange.
unreasonable, not logical and irrational.
Coming to think of it, how true can it be.
Jesus demonstrated it by dying on the cross for us.
He is willing to die for us even though we are not worthy!
So all along i have been 'wrong' when i bless people.
I bless with a wrong intention which is to please them.
I will still continue to bless
but it's because those pple matter to God and I wanna please God.
And I wanna bless because I really love them.
And the love is those unconditional love.
Colossians 3:13-14 (New International Version)
13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
'Don't be angry, I know' - This is what God told me.
I see my mistakes and wrongdoings
I repented and I thank God for forgiving me
I should see how I can be more Christ-like
and not see how others are not Christ-like.
I wanna put on love and love people like how God love me.
I will grow.
I will change from being a self-centered person to other's centered.
I will change from thinking about now to thinking about eternity.
Love require sacrifice, it's not just a feeling but it involves having certain attitudes and actions.
Love is not about preferences,
it's not whether you feel more comfortable with this person,
or whether you like this person presence more.
Because Jesus did not choose people to love,
He love each and everyone of us,
including the Romans soldiers who nailed Him on the cross.
Luke 6:32-35 (New International Version)
32"If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' love those who love them. 33And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' do that. 34And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners,' expecting to be repaid in full. 35But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.
Real love perseveres.
Real love doesn't give up hope.
Real love goes extra mile.
Real love doesn't give excuses.
Loving people despite personal differences and personal inconvenience!
'I want to care for others, like Jesus cares for me...'
John 3:30 (New International Version)
30He must become greater; I must become less
Thank you God for Your kindness in my life.
Thanks for showing me the way.
Thank You!
Ringing in my head is the song 'Awesome God'
'Our Father in heaven, establish now Your kingdom
All power, dominion
Be to our Awesome God!'This is a super long post again.Hope you won't get bored reading it. But it serves as a reminder to myself!Keep watch over me too =)To that person whom i think you know who you are:I'm not sure whether you will see this but i'll just say,I don't know how to carry on from here anymore.I feel that you are making it awkward,but i think you feel that i'm making it awkward.In any case, it's just awkward.I don't like this.I want to know what you are thinking,and how you feel.I'm angry, upset, dissappointed.I know that human fails,i know that you are not perfect,but it seems that you have no intention to do anything to it.You are just telling me that you don't want the friendshipin an indirect way.I know, this is my assumption again.But i'll never know if you never say.I'll never understand if you don't explain.Labels: Awesome God