love of my life

Hate sin, Love sinner.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

♥ 9:07 PM

I was rather impatient and easily frustrated this few days,
till the extent that i feel like scolding bad words.
Meaning this is getting real serious.

So as i was telling yanyu about this and i was saying i want to find out the root issue.
And right after that, God showed me!
Esther leow's nick caught my eyes - Hate sin, love sinner.
Gosh.

Immediately i started reflecting about my life.
Ever since i move on to tertiary, i have become very task-oriented.
I was very focus on accomplishing things.
Till i forget about the most important thing,
Love God, Love people.

I repented.
Sin is the one that i should hate,
sin is the irritating one not the people.
I want and need to grow in love for the people,
because people matters to God.

God help me to love your people like how You loved, help me to see them through Your lenses and be filled with compassion for them.

Labels: Love God, Love people

Christ-centered Christian

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

♥ 7:46 AM

I must faster blog down before i'm become lazy to blog. HAHA.

Anyway on tuesday, we had nel's workers meet at jacob's place.
It was really a powerful one.
Like what everyone else says, i didn't expect much of it.
To me, it was just like another meeting.
Moreover, i wasn't that well.
But God is really a powerful God.
I was practically blow off during worship.
Whatever that i was comtemplating in my mind, God knew !
The message was clear and it woke me up.
I must be a Christ-centered Christian, not a self-centered one.
Not serving God according to what i want but serving Him according to what He want.
Supposedly nel was to teach but in the end, it became a sharing session.
It was equally powerful.

Just a step more! Do it for God.
You never know what God will pour down when you decide to let go.
Instead of chanting 'I want to let go', i'll put my focus on to God.
Trusting that God had everything planned out nicely,
and things will not go according to what I want.
I cannot force, i cannot have my way.
I can only let His will be done.

Anyway i was blog surfing and i found this 2 blog very interesting and inspiring.

Acts 13:50-52 (the message)
Some of the Jews convinced the most respected women and leading men of the town that their precious way of life was about to be destroyed. Alarmed, they turned on Paul and Barnabas and forced them to leave. Paul and Barnabas shrugged their shoulders and went on to the next town, Iconium, brimming with joy and the Holy Spirit, two happy disciples.

the phrase “happy disciples” struck me. is it possible to be ambitious and stress-free at the same time? to be rejected yet not disillusioned? to go on scattering the seed with joy, in hope some would eventually respond?

i believe the answer is yes, yes, yes. but only if we remember what’s within our control and what’s not - and leave it rest at that. one may sow, another may water. but only God can make it grow. no need to tell him how to do his job.

This was taken from Pastor Shirley's blog - http://irrevocable.wordpress.com/

http://www.jaspoon.blogspot.com/ - Pastor Jasmine's blog
She's talking about being a charismatic leader in her current post.

Woohoo. Both powerful and strong women of God!

Labels: Awesome God

Updates.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

♥ 10:51 AM

Woohoo~
Abit too slow but really wanna WELCOME SAMANTHA & YENSEE to Bizart 3!!!
Oh and SARAH converted as well!

It was really an eventful holidays.
Chionging evax, meeting people, blah blah blah
and forgetting to do my assignments. lol

Last last friday, we had our very own bizart food competition at Jacob's place.
It was really fun! I had a breakthough~ I drank bittergourd juice and ate starfruit.
There was an overflowing of contacts from my cg and they really enjoyed themselves that day. PRAISE GOD!

Then we have the DESIRES ESS!
It was fabulous and the message brought out was clear and touching.

Fastforward to last friday, we had bizart games competition!
I was one of the in-charge and it was really stress because of the sorting of teams.
I even had nightmares about it. But thank God, it turned out to be a success.
Everyone enjoyed! There was a team which is called Gorgeous Geckting & Pretty Joanne. They are so obvious in trying to bribe the gamemasters but it's the truth anyway. Haha.

By the way, I think i have a really BHB cg. Esp when da amanda is in it.
Retreat tml~

Many many many happenings till i don't know what actually happened.
hmm mind in a mess right now, another scar was made.
Sometimes i'm just so angry at myself,
why? why can't I express myself clearly?
I'm stuck again.
When things become meaningless, i guess i'm only left with God.
I'm still holding on because God is so much more important,
but feelings are real as well,
situations are tough and i have no idea how to move on.
And the worst thing is, I don't feel like doing anything to it.
I know i won't leave God, i won't stop serving Him.
But if i remain in this condition, i'll be better off dead.
Contradicting? Yea i am.
Oh Lord, won't You just help me?
Guide me out of this.
Show me THE way.

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freaks

Thursday, June 12, 2008

♥ 9:57 AM

i don't like to use this kind of words but i'm really....

DAMN PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: ridiculous

Goals.

Friday, June 6, 2008

♥ 10:15 AM

Just a post to remind...

Desires ESS - 14/06/08
Shirley Kam - 2 Visitors, 1 convert
Xiao Amanda - 2 Visitors, 1 convert
Joanne Tan - 5 Visitors, 3 converts

Let's reap the harvest!
It's not just about the numbers, but the souls!
100% MAN, 100% GOD!!!

Matthew 21:22 (New International Version)
"If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

Let's continue to labour in prayers!
Faith must be accompanied by deeds =)
Jiayou people, jiayou bizart 3!
Retreats after that~~~

Labels: Grow grow grow

Randomness

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

♥ 10:55 AM

I always have the urge to blog at an inappropriate timing. HAHA
I'm having my MBS mid-sem test tml and i seriously no nuts about it. LOL

Anyway an interesting conversation happen today:

4 yrs old nephew: Popo, you love me?
My mum: Yes i love you.
4 yrs old nephew: Er yi, you love me?
My sister: Yes i love you.
Me: Sergio (Nephew's name), you love me?
and he doesn't want to reply me =.=

Anyway the point is,
I realised that everyone have a longing to be loved, no matter how young or how old.
We need love in our life. That's why we have friends, get into BGR etc.
But the only kind of love that is able to fill our heart is God's love.
So start sharing now! There are alot of people out there who haven't know about God's love yet.

Being random here,
but as i was watching those donations show for sichuan, i realised it happen on 512.
And if u pronounce 512 in mandarin, it sounds like 我要爱.
I think the sichuan people not only needs donations but they need God in their life as well.

Labels: Love